A Humble Request To All !!

This is an humble request that I wanna make here in this platform … Pls read it and help me out in any ways with your ideas… if possible..

The only thing that can save lives which are trapped in the chronic poverty trap and indebtedness which eventually make them vulnerable, is an honest and sincere step towards eliminating the root of these problems.. This is something that we all know right? 

One step at a time.. I will be focusing on two aspects.. One being education and other being health.

One factor that has made a great difference in the evolution of mankind and that’s man’s capacity to store and transmit knowledge…

It will help in..

  • higher earning capacity
  • better social standing and pride
  • enables one to make better choices in life
  • helps in understanding the changes taking place in the society
  • stimulates innovations
  • facilitates adaptation of new technologies…

Let’s put up an effort to convert all these human resources into human capital.. As we know that poverty is one biggest challenge to a large section of our society.. so let’s hit that hard at the first go.

Poverty is hunger, it’s being sick and not being able to see a doctor, not been able to go to school, not knowing how to read, or not having a job, poverty is fear for the future brought about by unclear water. Poverty is powerlessness.. Poverty is losing a child to illness, lack of freedom and representation… Poverty is really a multi – dimensional… 

Let’s take our first step by holding each other’s hand and create a network… something very basic…

Like many a times we buy copies and notebooks.. and often we left so many pages at the end.. can we make an online platform where all will communicate and submit all those left out pages so that it can be complied and be distributed to those who can’t afford.. May be for their rough work.. rather than selling it to some kabawalla… the same goes with books, stationery, art videos, notes on any competitive exams which we might have cleared, or may be preparatorynotes for board exams etc.. We can even tie up with some online sellers for this..

And if this works.. then many such plans with respect to hygiene and sanitation are in the panel.. You can even contribute by writing awareness articles on any topic once in a week or may be by donating used clothes and even undergarments which might seem very trivial but it’s really important for many who can’t afford… especially for those unfortunate girl child….
The hands the rocks the cradle, the procreator, the mother of tomorrow; a woman who shapes the destiny of civilization, such is the tragic irony of fate that a beautiful creation such as a girl child- is today, one of the gravest concerns facing humanity…

Used this quote here especially because what happened with this unfortunate small little girl child in GD Birla School @Calcutta..and the reaction from society and school administrations..

The only problem is that I’m not very good at technology.. can anyone help me in creating a page which will help to reflect our agenda and connect to people at large… 

It’s not possible without our concerted effort.. Let’s make it happen.. btw, as promised…all the basic notes on political science from class 6th to 12th is ready.. I will be publishing here soon along with ancient and medieval world notes..

Loads of love and respect for my love.. who taught me so many things in life… this is just one reflection of it.. Prayers and wishes for her happiness, her smile, and for her success…. I will always be there for her in every crossroad.. Missing her a lot.. 



Life Note  #2 … 

Hello everyone, it’s been long since I write my last blog, but before writing anything I wanted to apologize for the delay in uploading the notes… it’s almost in the process…  in between work I am not been able to make them… I’m sorry for the delay..  However this post was something special for me which I wanted to share with you all..

All I want in this post is to express my gratitude to life for being such a good teacher and also to few people in my life without whom I wouldn’t be same person what I’m today.. K. M. Pathi sir is one of them who believed in my potential and encouraged me to work hard..

On a completely different note, I wanted to share what I felt when I read this quote today morning.. My thinking and belief in true and unconditional love get cemented every time I come across such quotes. It gives me the strength to carry on !!

Last September I had my birthday celebration, something that I didn’t expect to happen because it’s been long since I celebrated mine.. especially after 2013 

My nephew had this plan.. this 13 year old kid wanted to celebrate.. and I didn’t want to lose such rare moments to see him and my family coming together and witnessing them enjoying small moments of life…

This was the cake and he calls me “Mann”

Nagaland kaaftan was not that bad.. we enjoyed a lot!! 

It is one of those moments which will always have a special place in my heart!

This is Itisha, she was in Italy.. A friend of mine.. she was sending all she could on my birthday.. she searched a lot and finally landed into an Indian restaurant to celebrate my birthday with some Indian food and kept on sending pictures along with that call that continued till the balance got over !! 

I hope she comes out with some brilliant results in her exams on intellectual property laws… my prayers and wishes for her !!

In the meantime I had to visit purba medinapur, a district in West Bengal, for some official work where we actually got the first hand experience of mapping land revenue… very much similar to what the Britishers used to do.. I met my 72 year old kid and took him with me for few days…

Some moments I captured with my dad.. Met him and we actually shared our room at the circuit house… something that I will not forget in my life… 

Helicopter was something which I always wanted to ride… This came as a pleasant surprise… 

Babuism begins when you first misuse your official car along with your family.. I felt sorry about it.. but only got few hours I had enjoyed this company with my dad … I’m sure that I would not get this sort of opportunity again!!


These are some of the few paintings I did for my love..  She loves dancing, believes in spiritually, does believe in learning new things, and often had mood swings…. so I tried to capture all that in the above four paintings…  it’s my another small attempt to dedicate my love and respect to her… She is awesome in so many ways… but I could only capture few…

In the last few months I have been occupied with so many thoughts… few of them I shared in my Facebook page … allow me to share here as well… hope you will appreciate… 

Me praying for my parents, friends, and for my love… they matter to me a lot and I hope I will be able to pray for them for their health, success and happiness forever… because without them I do not find any importance to my existence !!!

Every morning at 6 am I woke up with my kindle and my ear plug these days and also with a hope that something better is going to happen… I believe that without mobile phone one can survive in a better way but without books life would often seem meaningless..

Anyways have to rush… Will post soon..

Loads of  love and respect for my love.. Prayers and wishes for her health, success and happiness.. 


Some Unanswered Questions… A Letter To Maa!!

In the short span of two years in service, I’ve seen uncountable number of violence cases related to women irrespective of their age..  The  word “Enough” seems meaningless.. I’m not only worried about the goons but also scarred of the liberals.. A concept which has been defined so differently under seven schools with 79 plus definitions..

Unfortunately many of us use this as a tool to exploit and others get involved in a situation which they never wanted to be, even in their nightmare.. I can debate with thousands of people and convert these liberals into realists but that would turn bitter… so without going into any debate I just want to see how this attempt of becoming awesome works in our given situation where we have only 4.5 % graduates (without considering the quality)…

Few weeks back a news was reported from Calcutta where an old woman of 61 years old got gang rapped in front of her daughter. Nothing has been changing, Policing is becoming difficult…This devastated my soul and I am ashamed of being a part of this civilized community..I am left with loads of unanswered questions and got reduced to a mere spectator.. I thought of writing a letter to Maa asking for some the answers..



After a long time, I’ve gotten some time

so, I thought that I’ll put flowers on the graves of my thoughts..

I have many questions to ask you..

whose answers I desperately require.

I search them daily everywhere.

Starts my day with these unanswered questions..


What is wrong with me  and my thinking??

Why I cannot be happy and searching for a

solution which is nothing but a myth..

Is our body any different from that of women?

They look similar though; the colour is similar too

Then how a pound of flesh converts a human being into a demon??

Why are acids stains present only on a female’s body??


Then why do those brutal scars leave their marks only on their body??


When an iron rod is inserted to that part of a female’s body

then it pains a lot….  but why every time I feel the same pain Maa ?

Not only a fountain of blood ooze out,

In the midst of pain, not just the scream that comes out….

Even prayers and compassion don’t seem to work..

Why everyday I can hear those screams ? Why everyday I find myself in the dark??

It feels as if someone has dipped the iron rod into the sun

and placed it on my heart, my dignity and my soul??

It feels someone has dropped infinite coal on an open wound..

   As if I’m insulting my own creator??



It feels as if a small child’s tiny fingers have been crushed by a sharp rock

But HE doesn’t feel that way..

HE is still drowning in the obsessions of his childhood

that HE believes that if he break the legs,  twist the neck,

carcasses his fingers on the body, throws  away

by crushing HER under his palms

then tomorrow YOU will present him with a NEW  DOLL  to play with

But SHE not a doll made in markets for small children

In an envelop made of stars,

in a bag made of winds

I send this letter into the sky for you

                                                                 Dear Maa do reply  


Loads of Love and respect for my love.. Hope someday you will read them and realize the amount of love, care and respect I have for you !! Prayers and blessings for you will always be there for you till the time I breathe .. miss you !!!

Beparvah !!


P.S. Thought of sharing this post especially after the triple talaq decision which was announced by the SC of India.. The History lesson will be there in my next post.. Sorry for the delay !! Please excuse me for the painting I posted if you don’t like it… I deliberately made it with full of imperfections




Once You Stop Learning, You Start Dying – So Let’s Start Our Share Of  Joy & Learning !! 

Social sciences are one the core areas of the CSE examination which includes basics of history, geography, environment and ecology, economics, sociology and Indian society and lastly political science and Indian polity. 
After reading through all these subjects, I can easily support one assumption that is often made by many scholars in the past, that “History is the Mother of all social sciences” 

Hence, I thought of starting from the story of human civilization and all the related discoveries, inventions, developments and their relativity even in this 21st century world. 

In these two parts, I will be sharing my notes which I use to read while preparing for CSE 2015.. in a flow chart way which will certainly help in understanding and remembering the entire journey of human kind since pre historic era to the end of the middle age, often called as the dark age!!

The focus here in third part would be more as this is very crucial for the examination. It will deal with the developments that led to the beginning of a modern age and the respective challenges that each stream of our civilization faced. It will be full of my crispy notes, free scanned pages where I used to write and flow charts.. 

My agenda here is to help those who wanted to appear in this examination and serve this mighty nation; those who wanna contribute in the development of our mother nation, India, through the union civil services.

For others who are contributing in their own way… my pranam and salute!! For you all, these posts might remind you all those beautiful and not so beautiful  school days memories;  it will be an opportunity to relive the fun part of it and at the same time, we all can get our basics, our roots rejuvenated.. 

In my next post, I will be dealing with this major chunk of stories. I’m extremely sorry for this delay but I’m failing to manage my share of 24 hours properly in this crisis situation that north eastern part of our nation is going through.. 

Loads of love and respect for my love Beparvah !!

Life Is Beautiful. All We Need Vision and Not Just Eyes; We Should Differentiate Fun From Happiness. That’s The Core!!!


When the sarkarilization began…things change completely.. and we realize the potential of power dynamic, caste dynamic at every single level of work… even moving in my official car crates a gap between me and my people.. despite the fact that laat batti is removed…except police and ambulence …looking from my window…and searching the true spirit of my service in between the hills of Nagaland… That’s precisely I’ve been doing since past one month or so. The situation has really kept me quite busy.. (with planting trees  and creating social bonds with the locals and various tribes) especially after  Honorable  PM Modi visited here last week and had a meeting with all  DMs and secretaries from north east in Nagaland

Some glimpses of Nagaland …


The hills and the climate reminds me of our “last dukaan” episode with Harsh, Niharika, Akansha, Aakriti and of course Rahul during the academy training which I miss badly… today we all are serving in different parts of India ,,,but theses memories still binds us and hopefully it will forever !

In the mean time I went to Calcutta for some work for 5 days and guess what.. I got myself into some business deals…technically I’m not a business person till this Raksha bandhan… On rakhsha bandhan in order to extend my school property from Kalimpong( Darjeeling) to the south Digha( purba mednipur, west bengal) I purchased a small  Kanishka hotel/ lodge…  The above pictures are the back, front, and side views from the hotel…renovation work is on…along with booking ..so basically bought a running business !!

Once the deal was finalized, I requested my family members to visit as I wanted to surprise them.. These are some pictures of my family… Didi, her son(jerry) and Dad… These are perhaps some good moments which I witnessed after 3 years of silence since I lost Maa..



Here I got some time for myself.. in these few days I learned few lessons that this ocean taught me.. Wrote poems, finished few sketches, sang songs, remembering my love and feeling her presence in the flowing wind as if she was all around me.. asked loads of question and yet to get the solutions. Missed her a lot but I know she is happy and doing great.  I’m happy for to see her taking every step towards developing herself and conquering her fears.  Prayers and wishes will be there for her for the rest of my life ..

While going back to Nagaland… I also finished my blog nominations… because I knew that once I’m into that zone.. it would become very difficult to thank those wonderful blogger friends of mine who appreciated and acknowledged my work.  Thus the two nominations are as follows..

Liebster Award !!

Blogging is sharing some of our space, time, information and views with this virtual platform called “Wp”  Weeks ago I got nominated for & Blue Sky Tag award by a wonderful blogger friend Shivangi Mishra ! Do follow her blog , it will be a delight for sure ….


I want to thank her for appreciating my work and nominating me for this award. It really means a lot. Its my third Liebster Award and I’m really excited to bag this one. I still feel the same kind of excitement when I received my first award nomination in 2015.. Although I used to be extremely poor in accepting appreciation but, fortunately learned this art too. 😀 .




Rules of nominations:-

  • Pay regards to one who nominated you.
  • Jolt down 11 facts about yourself.
  • Then nominate the bloggers.
  • Do inform them of their nominations.
  • Give answers of the questions you are asked.
  • Ask questions from nominees.

Fact about me:-

  • I’m a 28 year old realist but often struck by emotions since 2015 March- a complete paradox !!
  • I’ve two law degrees but policing as my profession as of now.
  • I love to learn from everything .. from people and certainly from nature..
  • Not a tech savvy because it has created distances both inter and intra personal.. I use tech with a human touch ..admirer of Elon Musk
  • Hate is the only word that I seldom use..
  • A John Green, Ayn Rand, Paolo Coelho  fan when it comes to fiction
  • Loves to workout…without losing brains (whatever little I have)
  • Not a foodie or a bollywood fan… so often characterized as boring and unsocial..

My nominees are !!

I request to all to read their blogs and  follow them if possible !!

Questions that were asked from me –

  • What does blogging meant to you??

Blogging tolerates all my frustrations, endure all my stupidest ideas and thoughts, and gives me that space which we all look for.. so it helps to sustain my sanity !!

  • Who is your ideal person??

I admire four people like the most..  Dr. A.P.J. Abdul Kalam, Mother Teresa, Swami Vivekananda and Subhash Chandra Bose 

  • Can you write a line about your best friend??

My best friend is my life savior.. my support system, my mirror and my source of happiness !!

  • What was the happiest day of your life??

When I got my first gold medal during my B.A. LL.B (Hons.) I thought it to be my happiest day but while in my masters I received 5 gold medals and the value has reduced by that time.. Even clearing UPSC CSE 2015 was not something that could generate happiness… so I guess the happiest day would be the day when I realised that I have fallen in love 2 years back.. and everyday pray to god for her success and safety wherever she is .. 

My turn to ask questions from nominees:

I found these above questions quite well thought of so I would like to ask these same question and want to know from my nominees…if they accept and agree to reply back!!



Blue Sky Tag !!

I am extremely happy  by this nomination as its my 18th award nomination since 2015 and I value them a lot.  I would like to thank Vidisha  for nominating me for Blue Sky Tag.  I would like to mention here that she is also an awesome blogger and her beauty lies in her words full of honesty and simplicity. I would request everyone to visit her blog vidishakaithal.wordpress.com





1. Thank the person who nominated you
2. Answer their 11 questions
3. Nominate (tag) 11 people
4. Give them 11 questions to answer




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  2. https://beauteousdemeanor.wordpress.com
  3. https://bheartstealer.wordpress.com
  4. My Valiant Soul
  5. https://ssassypen.wordpress.com
  6. https://fluffyswriting.wordpress.com
  7. https://pseudomonaz.wordpress.com
  8. https://decodinghappyness.com
  9. https://foodfondweb.wordpress.com
  10. https://devikaparekh.wordpress.com
  11. https://ishanalways.wordpress.com



1. Are you a cat person or dog person?

Dog for sure. I admire the sense of loyalty which they possess !!

2. Which achievement of yours you are most proud off?

My First gold medal after my law graduation

3. If you are really drunk, you are most likely to?

I don’t drink at all…so i really cannot say but hypothetically if I consider myself                drunk then I would sleep quietly in my corner.

4. If you happen to adopt a celebrity, who it would be?


5. One word for Bollywood.

   Our biggest source that generates soft power ..so it is one of the tool in our                          diplomacy.. Otherwise I’m not that much interested in films except few !

6. Last message to your ex would be?

I don’t believe in “Ex” .. for me love or relationship is something which is not dependent on the fulfillment of any prior conditions.. So once I’m in …I’m there forever be it one sided, unrequited, or if someone leaves me in between… I would hang in and would pray for her success and health forever because I respect my feeling and also my partner. so my message will always be to my partner/ my soul mate and not to my “Ex”

7. Hands or forks and spoons?

Depends upon the food.. if its pani puri, chaat, or paranthe… then surely I would use my hands.

8. Last used emoji of your whatsapp is?

I rarely use them…  they are very deceptive !!

9. What is the first thing you do every morning?

Talk to mom through her picture, then move to my newspaper desk with a cup of tea/  coffee

10. What is the one thing you want to do before you turn 30?

I wanted to begin my own new school at Digha ( West Bengal) near to our recently      purchased hotel as an extension of my kalimpong (near Darjeeling) school.

11. One dish you absolutely love?  ❤

Anything with family especially if made by mothers !!


There is no doubt that all these questions are very well designed and thought of. these are some real good questions to know something about a person’s nature and character at the first go .. provided he/she is being honest in replying them which I presume they would be.. therefore I would love to ask these questions again to my nominees



Loads of love and respect for my love

Beparvah !!

P.S. From next posts I’ll be dealing with notes as promised !! 















































Time Table – The Forgotten Dreams !! 

It’s been one of those forgotten dreams that we used to plan together.. but as I said in my last post that even if we are not together anymore… it doesn’t mean that the dream have to die.. Dreams are special so they are to be protected, they should get their due care and love.. 

Moreover, its been three weeks here at Nagaland. I’m short of words to explain my experience in words.. the new ways that I engineered for communication which helped me a lot especially during our weekly sessions while communicating with the local tribes.. 

In my last post I did mentioned about the moments of solitude which at times is bad and depressing…   I think may be almighty understood the pain rather quickly and here is this surprise waiting for me that I received from one of our professors from my university.

It’s been four years since I graduated from Lucknow, which brings me to the point that no matter the odds, true love never fail.. it doesn’t believe in negotiation… all it requires is guts !! 

In the mean time I went to Varanasi for a couple of days where, under the GoI programme , we organized yoga sessions.. it was awesome to interact with a big and raw crowd… although it has become a habit now since past two years!!

Anyways, as promised, I would be sharing my notes and important pages with a little discussion on each topics as per the plan mentioned below…

It’s the board I bought in kohima, perhaps my first purchase here, to give you a better picture as to what will be our agenda in my upcoming posts… 

Target audience will not be restricted to CSE aspirants alone… but also those who wanna go back to their school days and enjoy those moments again…

The content will be the exact form which is about to publish from Vision Ias publishing group. 

This book is going to have two main highlights, one is that, it was her plan and we finally agreed to do this while we were preparing. She always used to say that there should be one book which should cater to all subjects and topics should run parallel with time.. which becomes easy to read and understand.. so this book will have parallel understanding of events with time. 

The other one will be that the book will be thinner, full of flow charts which will be a student’s way of learning, which is more scientific and concise without missing pout of any static portion.. 

There might be some irregularities in posting contents every week… but it will be only due to my failure of not making time management properly… but I will try to stick to this may be in late hours after office.. 

It was our dream  to publish this book jointly but now let’s we all make this dream come true and in the process .. any one can be benefited who is carrying doubts about this exam, or has issues which are restricting them to join any coaching classes…

Loads of love and respect to my only love Beparvah!!

P.S. There are three nominations… I’m extremely sorry for being late by another post because it’s been really hectic schedule for me which is perhaps seems to be a never ending path as of now.. 

Walking On The Promise.. & Thanking Life  !!

Time never gives opportunity to anyone..it depends on us as to how we understand & appreciate the moments without taking things for granted.. Time certainly gives us lessons… it teaches us many things but again..it depends upon the capacity of the receptor… unlike gravity, which is certainly a better teacher than time. It keeps us grounded… 

I never got the opportunity to thank my mother when she was alive..whatever she used to do, I thought I deserved it all. Its not that I never valued what I got but it was more like being ignorant about the fact that how lucky I was. 

But I would not like to make this mistake again. I would like to thank the almighty to bless me with a strong father- who has taken up the challenge and with time  he is only getting stronger.. and stronger…

All he has been doing is to support me unconditionally even after such a big loss of losing his better half at the age of 70. Time has taught me something serious which I cherish today. Here at Nagaland, living here all alone in my district I miss him a lot. 

Since evening after coming back from office, I literally fail to hold my tears very often. The pain of being alone is terrible..I hope and pray that no-one should go through this… it’s easy to write about it and extremely difficult to practice.. it requires some amount of maturity to appreciate the importance of a company. 

Dad.. no one ask me here as to whether I want tea or coffee every morning unlike what you used to prepare every day so many times so that it gives me that adrenalin rush…. with your special tulsi tea … which used to help me in long study sessions.. 

Not a single day I saw him resting without performing something which he was not supposed to do but he took those as his own responsibilities… 

Every morning he would get these flowers from our garden and would place before my mother’s picture.. not even for a single day I saw that being missed.. 

The constant support ,  the unending effort comes out of unconditional love which is precious than anything else. It does not really matter what we are getting in return..

This is what I have seen throughout my childhood and adolescence … and I’m blessed that I could percolate the same so far..

It is true that I do miss human touch… here. Staying all alone with work and seniors dealing with some serious issues that will be going to touch lives directly.. since my last visit to Delhi.. I ‘ve not met any of my friends…although they keep on tagging me on Facebook..

Sometimes I do find some generous and kind soul… who sends blessings I the form of sudden gifts all the way from Bangalore so as to bring some smile .. thank you so much Itisha and Isha.. I’ve no words..

Every day when I saw my uniform laying on my bed…I feel the sacrifice worth it. I feel lucky to chosen by almighty.. for giving me this opportunity to work for his own creations… 

There are people for whom you matter so much and to balance that the almighty also had created someone who will make you believe that no matter how people love you.. they give a damn. This is nature.. just an act of balancing… accept it and remain honesty and loyal !!

This I made out of a chalk with the help of few pencils.. it was surely an accident as I had no plans of making this out of a chalk .. I was just finding something inside it and kept trying … never chase anything especially those what you want.. just keep trying, continue your efforts, be honest and loyal… things will fall in line..

In this respect I would like to make an announcement that way back in 2015-16, I have decided to publish a book simplifying the IAS preparation while preparing …. it was, to be honest not my idea.. it was given to me by the girl whom I loved and I still do.. she used to say that we should jointly start a book.. but as some miscommunication seeps into our relationship (much fault I presume) that even I lost the friend in her.. it’s true that I lost all connection with her since past two and a half years but that shouldn’t stop me from the pact we had, I should respect her plans whom I loved and respected a lot .. hence, it’s my honour to announce that from next weekend onwards I will be covering the entire syllabus of general studies with notes… completely cover the entire 44 NCERT BOOKS from class VI – XII apart from few basic books.. anyone can rely on those notes..I used it during my preparation… two successive times… 

P.S. I will be posting my next post about the three nominations I received from three beautiful blogger friends of mine.. I’m sorry for the delay… I’ve thought that last post to be my final one but it’s really difficult to keep myself away from word press..

With loads of love & respect for her Beparvah!!


A New Chapter !!

New experience is about to begin..

But whether it’s exactly new or a continuous process, is a difficult question to answer.. 

The time frame we are given is limited, the number of failures around us will always be more than the number of achievers, so the picture around us might look gloomy but in reality, the surrounding depends upon how we look at things…


He is an achiever because he could finally managed to feed his little sister for the day. For him sense of security, privacy is a luxury, if at all he is aware of these concepts.. They are my source of inspiration!!

Isha (right) believes her to be an achiever … as she finally manage to carry the saari, she sent this picture to me to express her gratitude and happiness as she wore my mother’s saari which she gave her when she was alive.. 

I felt something when I got to meet these young guns today !! They are full of innocence, dreams and aspirations… if I could help them to reach to their respective goals, I would surely feel that awesome moment… 

Thank so much Deepti for organizing that very special welcome.. seldom I feel myself to be so important … today was one of those days.. Thank you once again for making it more special!!

As I came to Calcutta almost a week back only for a couple of days . I was surprised by the achievements of my father..  I do not stay here in Calcutta these days..So my computer system was not properly maintained.. but as I reached here, my father sent me this picture in whatsapp as he fixed it all his own for me and said that he is taking care of my stuff.. so that I do not get into  any trouble whenever I come back.. .He is 72… my father!! I will miss you baba… Will miss this love here… I am writing this so as to make it clear that you are my hero.. You have taken up the responsibility of both maa n baba.. since she expired..!!

I will miss you Brunoo… n my dearest Rosy.. because you two have always understood my tears, mood.. you two have treated me every time with love no matter I fail or succeed !!

Though they cannot speak the way we do, but whatever they do is genuine …They do not manipulate like humans do .

Loads of love…and respect for her… I may sound foolish but I believe that if you constantly pray for someone’s happiness without asking anything in return.. then almighty will keep that person happy… which I really wanna see..

I don’t know whether I would be able to write again or not… but if I stop for some reason then that will not stop my prayers… and not limit my feelings to perish… it will always be there and if something exist which on which we all have faith, must approve it.. !! 


After A Long Time… Gathering Love & Emotions !!!

“​It’s not that difficult to bring smile on to someone’s face..All you need is a little time… And we can make anybody and everybody happy.. It doesn’t demand money to do this” – 

Had a two day visit in the Capital before diving into the pool of work with no non sense approach to life…. 

Meeting friends may be for the last time was difficult but I kept that with myself so that I could enjoy most of the quality time with these goldmines that I have in my life !!

My trip began with kanika and Fatima… it was a pleasant surprise.. Fatima came to India for meeting friends from Boston but she never thought that she would be able to see me… 

On the other side. Even I was about to meet my friends… but never thought of meeting Fatima… May be, even God wanted this to happen before we walk towads our respective goals.. 

This was her reaction when I appeared suddenly to take my share of chocolates she bought from United States…

Aditya was as happy as I was… even his mother was of the view that I am still in Kashmir, but she was not aware of the fact that I came here to meet them as I had to come to Delhi for my medical check up anyway… When I sent this picture to Aditya’s mom… she was excited and surprised at the same time.. after meeting Aditya, I met many others including Dhruv, Divye, Rajat, Srivats, Arjun, Udayan, Pragya, and kamayani(All practicing @ Supreme Court for the last four years)..

Ended my trip with meeting Isha, The meeting was planned at the end as she was having her PhD examination in ILI ( INDIAN LAW INSTITUTE )… and it would not be possible to come to Delhi and going without meeting her especially when she was able to visit me to Kashmir..

I don’t know when I will meet them again but I have collected loads of memories which will be enough for me to continue my journey.. towards my goal ..

Just before leaving Delhi…I met my Guru.. Prof. KM Pathi, which was also not planned… but I feel blessed.. had a wonderful time you sir especially after the “Himmat” project.. 

It’s my humble request to all, especially to all those Indian women who has to travel a lot all alone… it’s not a distress app… pls read about himmat app … which will certainly add your confidence and a sense of security while traveling.. a lot of hard work has been there to ensure security of our women and all those women who travel in India alone…

It was a lovely and memorable meeting.. Thank you so much sir for arranging this meeting with such a short notice and taking out time from your busy schedule… A lot is left… one hour was not enough especially when meeting you after so many years… would be meeting you soon….sir.

Okay !! Okay Harsh enough of your posts.. and poses… tired of clicking pictures…N/E is really disturbed and we have got a lot of work… let’s dive into the sea soon darling..

Finally, I would like to mention that my feelings for my first love is not going to end and will remain forever deep within me..I believe honesty and undying love have stored something for me. My prayers and wishes will always be their with her no matter wherever she is!!
Loads of love and respect for her…

Beparvah !!!

No Beparvah.. It’s Me… Harsh!!

Hello friends..

This is my first post on this blog which belongs to my friend who is known by the name Beparvah… 

My name is Harsh Aggarwalla, serving under the GoI. Policing has what pulled us towards each other even more. However, I knew him even before our interview…

Before writing this post I was reading this blog. I got to know about the core and background of this endeavor i.e. his unrequited love … which turned him weak initially but later he started gaining all the strength out of this platonic and devine love…  this was all the crux I found after reading most of his posts…

I have not seen an idiot like him… to be honest… he is a guy who is always on a roll to contribute without even thinking about his own good even for a second.  I am not here to describe his goodness here but I would certainly miss him if something might have happened to him in the last attack he survived that occurred last to last week…

Most of us even envy him for having this selfless character but we cannot do anything about it. I cannot become like him.. because somewhere down the line I will be selfish…  I know about his entire love story which was nipped into the bud even well before it got started… I know that beautiful girl … (not personally but through his blog and diary ; not with his permission, that goes without saying)

I just wanna tell you girl if you are reading this post.. that you did the best possible thing to him.. he wasn’t up to your level of expectation and didn’t even have enough to reciprocate apart from an undying love for you.. leaving such a soul is the best way to survive … I wish I could do the same like you.

I have seen him climbing to the top, fighting his own emotional instability , I have faced his restlessness… his undying hunger… he had changed… 

From a nice gentleman who used to be a popular guy in the academy with his witty comments and sense of humour …to a roaring tiger…. all thanks to you dear girl.. you have curved and shaped him to this extent… that even death often takes another route when it encounter him in between…

Often rejection breaks down people and they move on to someone else with a pragmatic approach … as if like going to a shopping mall.. liked a dress very much but couldn’t find a proper size so get diverted to another product…. but this idiot will wait for that product to be produced again which will be a complete match..

This idiot will always be there for you , praying for you in probably all the mandir and masjid here in Kashmir.. and treaty of India as and when he gets transferred..

I can only wish and pray to god for both of you… that may honesty, loyalty and light sustain forever in this divine relationship… wherever the destination is, time will solve this “gutthi”  only concern is that no one must get harmed.. wishes to both ..

Not at all sorry for abusing you, posting your picture without your consent, you bald headed brilliant… get some thing for yourself.. dude.. its your life too… I know this would be my last post… as you wouldn’t allow me further… taking the advantage of your stay in hospital… come back soon…  we all miss you especially the doctor from our own city Varanasi !!😍

 With love….