Crossing the distance of around 500 footsteps is taking the hell out of me…
My selfish heart keep on beating for her ignoring the role if should suppose to play for me.. My constant reminder to my heart is been ignored like anything.
After a long struggle I finally reached to the bus stand and I felt that she is standing beside me and waiting for the signal to cross the road towards her home, as she used to wait… until I get my respective bus and often we used to get late..
Gone are those days, those magical moments but I remained there with lot to say, lot to write… I wish i could stop and control time so that I could live for few more moments with a big smile on my lips…
Coming to class, attending court rooms, waiting in mess has become really very hectic… Even after staying for 6 years away from home, the feeling of homesickness grabbing me from all corners and the her absence consumes the remaining of me….
Reading a couple of pages from the internet about how to control the kind of emotions that am carrying now, but looking at the options I decided that it would be better to be intoxicated in her dreams n memories than to follow the instructions provided ….
After attempting for months I have failed to put across the reality of her absence from my brain to my heart.. I have realised that am actually losing control over my body, my emotions which will worsen the situation even further !!
I pray to god to have me the eternal strength so that I can carry all they pain and agony along with the will power to fulfil my commitments towards my family..
Loads of love and respect for her ….