Being a victim of my own success…
It’s really cool to win awards, trophies, medals but the value of all these exist only when you have a purpose behind winning it… Often, the purpose for me has been even bigger than any of these competitions of life per se !!
The greatest secret of true success, and the ultimate source of true happiness is when a man/ woman who asks for no return, the perfectly unselfish person, is the most successful one.. But it is very painful to confess that we often fool ourselves by the material gains we possess and the reason lies somewhere in our inability to achieve that selfless state..and we often hide that in the garb of being pragmatic.. But it will fade soon.
Mark my words, we are what our thoughts and experience have made us; so take care about what you think, we just can’t percolate the past bitter experience to destroy our present… Words are secondary, thoughts live, they travel far with us..
Success creates divide because there is a dearth of meaningful and healthy competition..I believe the only toughest competition exist when we compete with ourselves and appreciate our failure equally..
Chess and debates, my second love of life, first being . Well I wouldn’t repeat… as the entire blog is about her..
She always used to say that I am be a good manipulator, decent with my subjects and too bad when it comes to science and maths… Her words had a deep impact on my soul. Her criticisms were like blessings in disguise.. She was a good friend who was able to say the truth blutly with an objective to help and not to criticize per se…
Today, I want to share one of my recent victories over chess and debate at chess Club , Calcutta IIM, Calcutta with her. This one is not as big and great as she is.. But I would love to dedicate the same to her because I loved her madly and I believe that it happened because of whatever I have learned from he !!
There are billions of people in the world and in our limited life time, it’s not possible to meet and understand each of them; similar to the sources of knowledge, there are infinite books and the time is short indeed.. The secret is to take what is essential & live up to it !! We need to chose people in our lives, we need to prioritize… I did that too early !!
By the way another achievement that I would like to share which is even bigger than the earlier trophy in all respect and that is, sponsoring the first foreign trip for my father, after saving for months.
I could finally smile after I arranged a 7 day small trip to Thailand for my father. It feels so great when you arrange a first foreign trip for your parents… I hope he will like it !!
This is nothing when I compare with what I got from my parents.. and it would be foolish on my part if I compare the same. But it reminded me something what my Maa used to tell me; she always believed that it was due to her prolonged illness, they couldn’t make it to a trip abroad for more than a week.. She wanted him to visit places, and today she would be very happy..
I was almost close to tears when I recall her face in the hospital . Wish I could arrange the same for my Maa as well.. But I believe that I am nor lucky enough to deserve their love equally.. Life happens!
Loads of love and success to my love, Stay blessed, prayers and wishes are always there for you. My tears and emotions should not become an impediment for your success.. I have understood this fact. I will always be around and pray. You are being missed terribly.