There were mornings when I did not wanted to wake up and there were nights when I was all alone with my thoughts and memories of the dream that I lived when I was with you. !!
People often built walls to know who is going to break it down..the serious image of
mine was shattered by your love way back with your small gestures,
those smiles, and puerile acts of ours.. I wonder how I fail to understand you…
I lost a good friend in the process… whom fell in love with..
I couldn’t even prove my worthiness and love for you properly !!
My life was strangulated between time and space,
but being an obstinate creature I just don’t want to lose the hope..
wish that you would understand that someone loved you with all purity and honesty !!
I got my life back after battling with all deadly and invasive adversities
may be because of your love but I’m also scared that may be
I’ll die because of the same reason !!
I know life is a gift; our temporary success makes it more beautiful
and our loved ones add to its significance but
having said that, the absence of the same makes it worse than death…
Set me free from me & myself..you can pray this at least !!
Be it during my riding sessions or in the library
I’m always in my past… I ‘m always with you ..
I really wonder
what should I do if you are always ticking inside my heart
I dream of you more often than I don’t
I know that it’s painful to accept that you have fallen in love with someone
who can’t be yours, but its more lethal to suppress it hence I’m writing it down all
so that in my absence these may always remind you of me …
As someone said that we are shaped and fashioned by what we love..
Then what is love ??
I wonder what god’s intentions are…
Why there always exist an element of inequity
Why there is a less sky and more birds !!
A share of joy and a share of sorrow,
A share of a gulp, and a share of a breath
And a share of the wound and relief..
When we entered the academy we all had a great and warm welcome
People took our palm prints and took their imprints on our batch sheet …
Here I missed you. I wanted to celebrate your birthday here.
You remember ??
A tale of heart shattering
I wonder what charade is your love ..
Seems as a culprit at night
And like god during the day …
Since last 15 months I haven’t slept properly,
Habits changed, I as a person changed, though its unfortunate that
I am shouting about it
on my own only because I just wanted to yell out loud..
so that my voice can reach to you and covers the long geographical distance..
Just cant die like this everyday.. and am scared about the fact that
god must not punish you for my tears and pain..
because it has never been your fault
You are my only hope !!!
Sleep is like a lover,
If we don’t give it ample time
It starts to deceive you ..
And its not easy to cajole her !!
But for me, night is like my companion
It stays awake with me.. and in the
morning it hands me over to the dawn
safe and sound !!!
Then the dawn makes me run
run …run and run !!!
I wonder at times that if I die now..
What am I going to miss the most ??
My job, position, uniform, money, or my friends and the loved ones..
And I could see few faces and one is of certainly yours !!
Trust me, all through my journey in word press, I
have tried my best to convey the pain that both of us had suffered and still suffering
through my words but there are many wounds and bruises
which do not even leave red marks and that is something which scares me more …
I believe that wounds are always open to each other..
I don’t want a void in my life..
I wanted to feel it with my bare fingers: be it my coffee mug or our relationship..
But one thing that I forget every time is that
I do not have the liberty to express my love and pain
Nor even to cry
I hope you will understand my helplessness someday….
Every day I wake up with a hope that today my wait would end
This is what kept me going so far..
May be somethings are better left unsaid !!!!
Loads of love and respect,
P.S I deliberately chose the red color because I had purpose behind it !!! And all the picture except the last two and the quotation on love, are from my new camera .. got it a moth ago.. so please excuse me for those if you feel them not good enough.. am not very good with camera.. there are people who click photos for me most of the time.. and am always thankful to them.. especially MISHA, ( IAS ) * & also for my picture !!!