When we love someone selflessly… we tend to sacrifice anything for them.. be it small or large… the preparedness of sacrificing for our loved ones secretly is what constitutes true love !!
As we grow old in life.. things are taken from us.. that’s part of life; but the willingness to fight and to contribute is what life is all about .. That’s the real success. No big bank accounts, and properties can actually be able to buy or purchase such relationships !!
Just a part of an anecdote..- I remember that one mysterious box hidden deep in my mom’s almirah … she used to keep that with herself always as if she was holding her lifelong savings.. After I lost my mother, I found that treasure which she use to held.. A faded rose on the lid.. where her name etched on the rim… and now after all these years, I can see her secret sacrifices stored inside it!!
I remember those moments when I could hear the jingling sound of coins along with her sighs as she used to walk to the market, saving on the bus fare..
I remember when she told me to take care of that box while she was being taken to the hospital for the last time , believing that she would come back soon…
Later after her death I found a letter n that she wrote to my would be wife, one ring which she wanted to give to her daughter in law and some old notes attained with her sweat as she juddled being a part time music teacher, a full time homemaker, and most importantly a non-stop mother !!!
Sitting here in Kashmir.. I miss my family.. my dad, my elder sister.. and the girl whom I loved the most.. I hope they are fine.. I always pray for them because that is what I can do from here at this point of time…I miss them a lot.. All of them are staying in different parts of the country.. from south, to north and to the east of India struggling with their own lives.. I’m sure that everything will be fine very soon…
I learned the lessons of sacrifices, the way to respect people, understood the core values of love… all from my family and especially from maa.. it is also true that after I lost my mother, I was not having a good relationship with my family but since I met my love..I was made to realize what family actually matters!!
Based on this very little understanding I would like to say that..it’s really difficult to stay away from family and from our loved ones.. it is also true that with time we manage.. but this habit cannot be a substitute… this is not the freedom I wanted to have.. I wanted someone to scold me and someone to pamper me at the same time!!
This has changed my life but it has only charged the lifestyle and not changed me per se.. I am still that stupid, stubborn guy who still manage to take some time where I go out to pray for my loved ones..
Still manage to get some secluded places where I cry for that girl.. whom I loved with all my heart… and always wonder about her daily struggle… I just want to tell her that I am always there for her.. no matter what the distance is!!
Moving around with my bike during my free time.. living a very professional life here.. all alone… except my family’s blessings and the love that I carry for her.. these two things completes me !!
I just wanted to thank the almighty for being the best accountant .. for being so fair and just.. you took away my mother but you have given me her eternal essence which is never going to fade.. you blessed me with this family .. and this girl.. who is simply the best human soul I have ever met.. only because of her simplicity and honesty !!
Loads of love and respect for my family and for her …